HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.
thank you guys for any kind of greetings (mentions, planks, messages, blogpost, live ones) attack. may all good wishes come true. ah, but not-so-thank-you for that 'unpleasant' surprise. why you guys did cruel to me??! you know i've never done that to you you you. however i like that shaun the sheep greetings board. special thanks to my special mom. you don't need to say sorry, mom. i am happy for any situation we are in as long we're together, for sure. and thanks to my second best, Hisyam Farabi. thanks for the support, wishes, card and gift. i love you all, guys :):):)

thanks guys!


thanks Ma


thanks Hisyam



btw today is my blog birthday, too.

GOODBYE TO MY GREATEST MAN EVER

Well, nothing lasts forever so does every humani will end up die. We don’t know how, we don’t know when. I just lost my dad. He is really such the greatest dad ever. He loves us with his own strange way (as long as I remember he never said 'i love you') but we know he has tried his best and I’m sure he remembered good in everyone’s heart. I won’t be (okay, I’ll try to be not) protracted in grief because it’s useless. You may see and think I keep calm and strong but actually I AM trying to keep calm and strong. All I can do is try to be the best kid so he, my mom and everyone will be proud of me (still thinking ‘how’). Lot of thanks to Allah SWT, You had given us him between us. And thanks to you too guys who has given your best support for me and my family. It really means everything for us who left. We love you, dad. Rest in peace :’)
DEAR ALLAH, FORGIVE MY SINS AND MY PARENTS' SINS. LOVE THEM AS THEY LOVED ME IN WHEN I WAS LITTLE.


I've been missing that warm smile already..

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OKAY CALM DOWN GUYS! this is not like what are you thinking. i made a deal with @nissash. feel free to unfollow me if you dont like the 'new' me. i really know i'm disgusting enough but a deal is a deal, dude. T_T
i'll be back on the following Monday, Dec 6.

OMG

HEY I'M TIRED ENOUGH OF ALL THIS THINGS IN MY RECENT LIFE!
THE WORST IS: IT IS JUST THE BEGINNING!!
dont know what else to say but this senior year seems like hell x(
paper paper paper, presentation presentation presentation, task task task,
tryout
tryout
tryout
EXAM
EXAM
EXAM
FML!
sorry if i whine a lot.
Dear God, would you give me more strength and some more patient?
Smell you later, freedom. *sigh*


**IWISHTHEABOVEPALACEISREALANDICANPLAYTHERE


currently listening to: i believe my heart - duncan james (lyrics here)
ps. i love hym, my current spirit :) :)
though i know smtimes he's sad having a girl like me, but still he believes me
and he always try to make me a better girl
i'm so sorry i ever disappointed you
thanks, h.

names for my kois

Tomorrow is the last final exam day
It's just not so important subjects for me
History and computer
I watched The Spiderwick Chronicles on HBO
With my little brother
Yes, it's just the two of us til Monday
And I took some picts of us


my Russell-look-a-like brother


his glowing magic thumbs

Before I go to sleep there's Hisyam on the line
Review the history from the slides
After I think it's enough reviewing
There's a thing crossed in my mind

Names for my kois
yellow: Cake
green: Joy
dark purple: Archi
light purple: the X & Y (twins)
uh oh they are greedy



good night ~

i want to watch these movies

HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF-BLOOD PRINCE


TERMINATOR SALVATION


NEW MOON


STAR TREK

they haunt me!

How could you stand sleep every night with those nightmares or weird dreams?

Wish there's no more of 'em in my sleep..



s.o.s

Morning
Everyone is busy with their own business
Boring
Really need someone who bring fun to my life

Boring

post from heart

It's not me
I don't want to hate anybody
It's just you
You make me hate you

I hate you

Sorry

me, I'm a green raccoon

You are Green Raccoon, who is affectionate, and have womanly attraction wafting around.
You give an impression of a dreaming little girl, but unlike your outside impression, you are very cautious and do not easily let other people in your heart.
Characteristics of this type of people tend to be rather weak and simple.
You want to depend on others heavily.
Therefore, you are good at reading people's character, and have clear preferences of people.
Although you tend to be a quiet person, you have intelligence, and once you are in action, you become very practical.
Your dreams are big, and you try to make it come true through your experiences.
Your dream will be decided according to the circumstances you are born.
Raccoon people have kind hearts and are full of volunteer spirits.
You take extreme good care of those people below your rank or those who are weak.
You are always enduring and show perseverance.
You are especially not afraid to face men.
You don't like to be alone, and therefore feel safe where there are lots of people.
By working and living in a group will improve you, and makes it possible to understanding yourself further, and be able to build up a better life.
Once married, you will do anything to help your husband, and can become a good housewife.
But you may become little too demanding, so be careful.

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Try DOUBUTSU URANAI now and find out what's yours!

Teenager's Labil Emotion

I am.
Not happy.
At all.
Now.

Leave me.
Alone or.
I will.
Eat you.
Alive.

makin siang, makin makin

oh parah
makin siang makin bosan
makin kesel
huhu ,(
pengennya marah2 mulu
daritadi gatau mau ngapain
cuma internetan
ini udah postingan ke-3 pagi ini
kya orang gila

kenapa gw bangun pagi?
kenapa ga bisa tidur lagi?
kenapa gw kesel2 mulu?
kenapa sms gw ga dibales?
kenapa gw didiemin?
kenapa film forrest gump yg part2 ga selsai2 bufferingnya?
kenapa punggung gw cepet sakit?

kenapa gw nanya mulu hah?
ga ada yang bisa jawab juga. bawel

Patient sucks

Sunday morning
Bad mood is coming

I hate this boring life.
You may say I'm weird. Yes I AM.
It's because of yourself!
Oh okay, it's just because of me.
I'm freakin weird.

People has their own limit of patient and so do I. Though my first name is Shabrina, that means patient, doesn't mean I must be a patientful person all over my life. I'm tired of this thing. Sometimes I want to be an impatient person, like I am now. Okay, now could you understand me?

Anyway, good luck for my sister for the Labschool test this morning.

10 musuh gw

1. Nightmares!!
2. Setan yang bikin gw jadi males
3. Can I still say mushrooms? Ew, gross
4. Insomnia (sometimes)
5. Melodramatic situation. I cry when I see someone's crying in front of me, LOL
6. Boring time
7. Orang yang bangunin gw dikala gw sangat membutuhkan tidur
8. Kaga berduit
9. Amarah sampe ke ubun2
0. She who'll not be mentioned here

Kyanya ini lebih ke 10 hal yang gak gw suka ya haha. Bodo amat ah.
I tag yang baca posting ini aja

PIMPLES

Have you guys, mostly you girls, have a lot of pimples on your face?

Now I'm having those things called P-I-M-P-L-E-S!

Mostly it's on my forehead and chin. Lots and big x( Ones on my forehead are the worst. It's already about 2 or 3 days hanging on my face. Why it gotta be lots when I'm not in my month period? I've already washed my face with facial foam. I used to have it rarely, not just like a thousand like now. Is there anybody can help me? But I don't want to go to beauty doctor. I ever went to Erha Clinic and I was too lazy to do the check up.

Btw, Happy Nyepi for all who celebrate it.

Love, S

Dream about you and me

I used to be afraid to fall asleep
because of those f-ing nightmares
but I'm not afraid to sleep now
I had a dream about you last night
We play together, you and me
I feel happiness :)
Lots of love for you, my professor

I don't need a sleep

It's about 1.01 am
What do you call this?
Late night or early morning?
Whatever it is
One thing I know is I just cant sleep
Already slept from 4-7pm make me still awake
But no
I don't want to sleep tonight
I already have a lot of nightmares when I slept
No, I don't want to sleep
Not with this feeling in my heart
Want to apologize
To whoever hurt because of me
And I feel sorry for myself
I'm not good enough for you

~S

Morning post

Last night I was studying biology while waiting for my boyf call. It was just too much. Biology. Digestion. Respiration. Ekskresi. Until I fell asleep. Still with opened book, biology printed slides, stationary and turned on desk lamp. All was on my bed. I usually study on my bed. Then I wake up at about 4.23am in the very morning. No missed call. Ok. So he didn't call me. I wanted continue to study but I got a stomachache (haven't finished having it). So I finished that business first and continue my learning, now after post this thing.

Bye~
Hv a nice day
Shasa

7:25pm

Warm water shower. Muay Thai tee. Shorts. Riri's bag. Slippers. Asyong's house. Guys swam. Glow in the dark 3x3x3 rubiks cube. Jay's. Pa Hari. Physics. Copies. A very late lunch. Bad maag. Crescent moon. No stars. Dad's car. Way back home. No reply message. Stomachache. Long traffic. Mobile blogging. Online. 7:25pm. Kalimalang.

ah March

I start this March with books, formulas, notes and glasses.
Ya, there will be mid term test like I've told you in my previous post.
BUT I haven't learn anything yet.
My printer has been fixed by my mom and I've already printed out the slides.
I haven't taken a shower though I must go to Asyong's house this afternoon.
I know, really know, I must study hard this term.

Jenni, my bestf, sent me a message me this morning.
I miss her a lot.
Having too much stuffs at my school make us meet rarely.
Hope we'll meet soon ya, Jen.
And ya, good luck for the model things ;)

Love, S~